you won’t be blue forever

“It’s okay to be blue, but you won’t be blue forever.” 

I was thinking about emotions (and blueberries) recently, how tangled up I always seem to be in my own - trying to sort them out in an eloquent manner so I know exactly when one will come and one will pass. But when something happens that pains me, it always feels like that heaviness will last forever. That I’ll drag my feet until I am 87 years old, that I’ll never breathe fully again without the sadness sitting on my chest. That I will be this blueness eternally. I think what has helped me move through these moments easier is just telling myself it’s okay that I am here, fully immersed in this emotion. I don’t have to lay it out, dissect it, and understand every piece of it. I can just feel it, and tell myself “maybe I will feel differently tomorrow”. And if tomorrow comes and I don’t, I tell myself the same thing again, until one day I wake up and my toes are a little more green than blue, and I’ll know I make it out eventually. 

8x10 Art print of my original canvas work. Printed on ultra premium photo paper. Matte. 230 g/sm.